Purpose...

Write about me she said....

You got it..

A lot of us walk around this world wondering what our purpose is? Why are we here? Through out my 39.5 years of life on this earth I have pondered that thought myself and here are a few things I have figured out....

That cupcakes are pure happiness and shouldn't be eaten with a fork, Mom, diet coke doesn't make things better, my heart REALLY isn't going to break but it does physically hurt as if it has, that it is never ok to wear socks with sandals, Mom, there are only a few people that are going to walk through most of your life with you, life was easier as a kid,  regardless of the pain there is healing and always a smile in your future, this life is temporary, eating Cheetos is worth the cheese remains left behind on your fingers, it is worth the risk to lick the bowl, spoon and whatever else has cake batter on it, rise or fall the risk is worth it all and that the best thing that has ever happened to me is my girl, M.

I also believe it is about waking up each day with a grateful heart and making the best effort I can to be Christ like and some days boy does that take a lot of prayer and effort, to share a smile, lend a hand, encourage, support and be the best YOU, that you can be and the rest falls into place right, maybe? maybe not?

I  do know that the day my precious baby girl all 7lbs and 9oz of her came into my life was the day I found purpose, I have loved her from the moment I saw her and I would never want to know a world where she didn't exist. I can't believe in a few short months she will be able to start drivers ed, *gasp*

M found her identity and independence at the young age of 18mths old, while I am grateful for a daughter born with a "spit fire" streak of independence, teaching her when and how to use it has been a challenge. From temper tantrums in the middle of the mall to throwing shoes from the back seat, I have shed tears that turned to laughter to keep from going insane. A thousand calls to my Mother for advice to hear " I don't know you were never that challenging" - HA! It has been a whirlwind of ride one that I wouldn't change for a minute. In the time that M was growing, learning so was I. She has taught me so much.

I have been through a lot, mostly in my 30's that M had to endure along beside me, while I sheltered her from what I could there were definitely times that I had conversations I shouldn't have to have, that I moved more than I wanted too, it has brought challenges into her life that she faced head on. Her tenacity, strength and strong will has molded her into someone I know that will stand up for what she believes and be the best version of her.

I am proud of her for the  feisty toddler she was to the young lady she has turned out to be. She has faced a learning disability in reading and worked hard and currently does not have any extra assistance in school and aced the STAARS test this year. She is moving into high school for her freshman year and I am beyond excited to see what the Lord has in store for her.

I can only hope she can hear my stories, listen to my advice and make better choices than I have a long the way. While I know she will set out in the world someday and make her mistakes that will help her grow and blossom into a woman, I hope that her life holds less painful experiences than mine has. That she will always go back to her roots when life trys to show her  who's boss and that she leans on the Lord and holds on tight for this wild ride called life.

On days where it is stressful because thoughts race in and out about what the future holds and I feel like the valley is never ending, one thing that makes me smile is that I have the unconditional love of this child.....

 

She is quirky and funny, she hates spiders and thinks moths are going to eat her. She is smart, strong and confident. She thinks cheese was the best thing created, she has a gentle and kind heart and is giving and loving. She's a baker just like her Momma!!

 

 

 

I love you sweet girl!!

 

Love, Mom